Spider Hole picture by Bill Finger
Many thanks to the positive words from my commenters. I have been really down, coming full circle from an anti-establishment Nader supporter in 2000 to believing that the Democrats actually might accomplish something in 2006 back to someone that is actually considering not voting.
I know. How could I? Isn’t Obama the great Black/White Hope? And isn’t not voting for Obama a vote for McCain? And why not vote fro Nader again?
I guess my answer is: Fuck it. Straight up. Fuck. It. I have spent the last couple of years pouring over the blogosphere, learning all I could about where we are today. Let me tell you, it’s not pretty.
The experiment has failed. Even with the amount of time and effort our Constitution’s framers put into designing checks and balances the corporations and moneyed interests run the show. Our Great Hope, Obama, is now shamelessly tacking to the Right in order to shore up his chances of winning. Motherfucker didn’t even bother to show up for the first vote on the FISA bill, and has now switched his ‘Against Immunity’ position to ‘Hey, Whatever Will Get Me More Votes’. We have the most unpopular President in history, and the so called “opposition candidate” has publicly said he will vote for the early X-Mas gift for Incurious George and Big Dick, Telecom Immunity.
As I write this, I have Pandora on, the After the Gold Rush Channel. Neil has spent his life rallying against this bullshit, and now I’m feeling like maybe this is exactly where the powers that be want me to be: Disillusioned and feeling utterly powerless. I just don’t know what to do about all of this. The ‘re-arranging deck chairs on the Titanic’ metaphor seems quite appropos right now.
All empires go through a life span. I don’t have the links right now because I forgot to bookmark them, but I have seen analysis after analysis comparing the United States to the historic Empires and showing that we are on the downward decline towards irrelevance. When big countries pick fights with small countries in order to keep fueling the nationalistic impulses of the people and greed of the rich then the gig is up. Fear for fear’s sake. Keep the people so spun by rising cost of living, the impossibility of health care, the difficulty of the job market and they won’t question our leaders even when we catch them elbow deep in our grandkids’ cookie jars.
Nothing worth having is ever easy. Hard work will set you free. Think in generational terms, not in immediate gratification. Good advice, but how do you work hard when you aren’t sure where the work lies? Do we work tirelessly to get progressives in the government, only to watch them eventually be corrupted by the sweet seduction of power and money? Do we risk being disappeared and work for actual revolution? Withdraw from society and arm ourselves to the teeth? Come up with a scam to get rich quick and retire on a tropical island? Give in and start a porn company to wring some of the last change from our fellow citizens’ pockets? Drink (even more ) heavily? Head to the hills and farm herb?
The last is my first choice, by the way, but I don’t see it working for my children. Plus, right now I think that giving the government a reason to incarcerate me is foolish (or just a paranoid delusion?) I don’t know.
As is human nature, I am comfortable enough to complain, so I do. I really am blessed. I have my health, and my daughters are growing to be amazing and brilliant. A superpower is not bombing my home town. Some paranoid freaks are not building 30 foot walls separating me from my friends and neighbors. We don’t have a President violently pushing his opposition out of the race. We don’t experience ethnic cleansing, or the terror of having to flee our homes in the dead of night for fear of losing life or limb.
I guess things are pretty good. I have completely lost faith in our government, even our form of government, but by all other metrics I am a very lucky human being. I’ll meditate on that for a while and see if I feel like participating in our ‘Democracy’ when I come out on the other side.