Not much to add lately to the swirling cacophany of faux outrage, lying pols, and media driven popularity contests.
I am a fairly extreme person, and I am swinging toward the apathetic side of my divide. Who cares who wins the nomination? The Presidency? How will I become more organized, less lazy, a better father? How will I sort out the tangled mess that is my inner dialog? How will I become financially responsible?
Gandhi famously said, “Be the change you want to see in this world.”
I agree. I think this whole media circus/ political kabuki situation we have today is a direct reflection of how scared and powerless we all are. The worse thing get the more desperately we search the internet for the latest pictures of Brittney’s depilation, scan the check-out line for news about Suri, or read our paper looking for who is or is not wearing a fucking lapel pin.
But what can I do? How can I make a difference when I can’t control my spending habits, can’t control my drinking habits, can’t control my heart? Do I really have the right to worry about the neighbor’s yard when mine is strewn high with junked cars, broken hearts and blackberry brambles?
It occurs to me that this may almost be a re-post of something I have brought up before, but these questions haunt me. Why was I given the ability to parse the outside world so effectively, but am stumbling around blind when it comes to my own inner world? How can I rail against people I have never known and will never meet when I can’t even accomplish the simple task of organizing and paying my bills?
The political world is scary and getting scarier as we near the end of the modern era as we know it, and the more we let ourselves become distracted by the chaos, the more the chaos grows.
I find myself pining more and more for the communal life. A small group of people watching each others’ back, each making up for each others’ shortcomings. A family of association. A place where everyone matters.
I guess this is less of a blog post and more of a purge of some of the feelings that are preventing me from saying anything relevant lately. I welcome your input.
And if you have never commented here before, feel free. The world is getting too crazy to stay silent.